Cause I am Green

As a confession, I’d like to say I have flashy thoughts when I shake someone’s hands.

I thought of killing him.


Just a thought

How much of your reality do you think is made of whats in your mind?
If you see what’s in your mind clearly and understand the power that thoughts have, then you understand reality while everyone else is running around confused and angry and upset, because they think reality is something happening to them rather than something they are making every moment with every thought.

I would not like to be a psychic, but I’d like to have the sight Seers are meant to have. I would like it as my role. To talk to people and see the tunnels and vortices in their minds and to understand the realities they would create if those thoughts lead to action.
For the most of the people, I would be meant to bring about the inherent retribution flowing from the reality made by their own thoughts.
And for my friends, to protect them from their tendency to underestimate the power their confusion has over their fate. To keep them out of trouble.

What about luck?
I know that you would be on to something if you said luck isn’t involved with a coin flip.
Well yes, that could must be true, but even so, I do know that luck is a very real thing!
Fortune is the essence of light, and it shines on those who seem to own it.
But I know something more important than this. It is a big secret. Maybe the biggest and most important secret of all.

Luck doesn’t actually matter.

Theoretically, yes ain’t we lucky

Alex.- So, did you enjoy your 6 months in detox?
Jack.- Hell no, it was just my get out of jail card. But now that they’re far gone, I’m enjoying them.

[“Jack, you’ve gone way too far, this time I’ll have to put you in an uncomfortable situation, and I’m thinking jail should be it… But given the situation, we could make a deal…”]   ‘Edward Fareby, Judge of the case.’ (Of course, while Jack keeps owning those amounts of money, Fareby will always be the one to sentence him)

Alex.- But I know you didn’t quit that fast. When you got out, were you determined to stay clean?
Jack.- I was, and I could try to… See, I knew it was like having a loaded gun in my mouth , and I liked the taste of the metal. But when you realize you lost your job, your family, your friends, and you’re out of money, you got injuries all over your body because of the debts, and you can’t make up your mind about what happened yesterday… you just want to go back to that feeling of waking up knowing where the fuck you are. I wanted a lot of feelings back in my life.
Alex.- You mean you had to reach the bottom again to make a decision. That’s when the hard work starts?
Jack.- Well… no. Leaving these substances behind is not that hard, I mean, not hard at all. The hard stuff is to take the decision. As you said, I had to reach the bottom line in order to make the hard step.
Alex.- Thats profound. Yes, very wise thing you just said. Are you ok since then?
Jack.- Yeah, pretty much.
Alex.- How about money?
Jack.- While in detox my father passed out. I was the only heir, so I got all the money he wouldn’t give me before. All the money I needed so I didn’t have to… work for this guy.
Alex.- What kind of work was it?
Jack.- I’ll tell you about it if you promise to not ask anything else about it.
Alex.- Alright.
Jack.- I had to be a whore, basically. I mean, not his whore, he had amm… some pals.
Alex.- Have you been afraid of coming back to those dark days? Of missing black tar?
Jack.- No. Those days were long enough. And we people are always looking for something different, new, exciting. And now I’ve found it, I can see that the whole world is waiting for me to enjoy it, while being conscious about it. Now life’s more worthwhile, now I just smile.
Alex.- I see.